Unfriend

We had a confrontation today. She has this weird idea that I'm going to continue to be her friend, help her when she needs, etc. even though she threw our relationship away. Somehow she is able to screw another man and destroy our family and still think that we can somehow revert to some form of friendship, as if we haven't spent the last eight years together as lovers... yeah...

So, obviously, she felt so little about our relationship that doing this to us hasn't effected her. Because she seems to have no clue about how I could feel like I don't want to have anything to do with her anymore. She is confused that I want to break away from her. Heaven knows I love her, I had another sob last night thinking about all that I am losing in her, but to be so obtuse... The girl has issues, it's sad and I really hope someday she gets help. I need help too, and I am seeing a councilor still and reading books... yeah, gold star sticker right *sarcasm*? Ultimately I just hope for the best in all this. I hope my son gets through this mess we are putting him in. I hope I will be healthy on my own. I hope one day I will find someone again that won't treat me like a doormat and then throw me away when I am used up. I hope.