Vertigo

I let go and she tried to take hold. Relationships don't make sense. She 'woke up' similarly to what I did a few months ago. And she wants to work on us becoming a family again. It could be a ploy, it could be more emotional manipulation... But I sure hope not. I would have loved to be given a chance to work on us by her when I 'woke up'. I didn't get that from her but how hypocritical would it be were I not give her a chance when she has now seemingly 'woke up' and I am the one walled off? Of course I risk my heart again. If the risk proves worth it, I get my wife and son back and we can work on being a family again. If it fails, I get hurt and things go back to being what they already are. The risk certainly outweighs my fear of being hurt. So far it's been a few days since she 'woke up' and so far so good. It's gonna take A LOT more time of course. And I have a new emotional mine field of troubles to traverse myself now. But I pray to God this works out because I really miss my family.