And a year goes by...

I didn't realize I haven't even blogged in a year. I think about this space, more so lately, and the comfort I find here writing to no one but myself. Still somehow thinking this space will survive me for however long the internet (or at least blogspot) does.

So yeah, a whole year. Well more than a year. In that year I went from my dad and son living with me and happily being single; To now living with someone I was dating a couple years ago and our kids with us together in a house. And my dad is dead.

That is actually why I have been thinking about this space so much. Because I wanted to talk about him. It took a month of saying I would get around to it and now today here it is. He's dead.

Dad found out he had colon cancer this past October. He had it removed, spent two months recovering and started Chemo in December. He was doing ok on Chemo. However, he had to go back into the hospital early February because he had a blockage in his colon due to scar tissue. While dad was in the hospital getting that scoped he also was having Arrhythmia issues again. So they shocked his heart to reset it. He was released home from all of that and the next day he was dead. He died from being treated for his health issues, not from the issues themselves. This is a new life lesson for me.

People die from disease, of course, but the treatment? Supposedly they do because he did.

So now my dad's body is just a pile of bone fragments found in a box in my garage. A month later and, while I know what to do with this world, I just don't know what to do with myself. Grieving sucks...