July

July, I think this is my least favorite month each year. Mainly because of the heat but now also because a year ago, as of tomorrow, is the first of a few new anniversaries for me. Tomorrow will be a year since the day I found out my ex was cheating on me with her now fiancé. I guess at least they are sticking together, someway I rationalize that it would be worse if she was just sleeping with the "flavor of the month." Right? LOL!

It is a day to mourn and celebrate. I lost my family as it was. Who I was started to die off as well. But my liberation from a dying marriage happened as well. Liberation from someone, whom I realize after much reflection, didn't really love me for a much longer time than I was aware of. Additionally my new self was being born out of the ashes of the old. In a way tomorrow is a birthday for me for that reason. So this day, like life in general, is bitter sweet.

All things considered, I don't have regrets. And in their stead, wisdom.